KINKS / FETISHES I enjoy serving. It comes natural to me, but I am also more. I love to explore new kinks before I decide what is right for me. My submission is a gift that must be earned. I am seriously kinky and horny but not at all promiscuous. I also need to be attracted and turned on and that’s a little hit or miss for me. I need someone to be educated, dominant and aggressive but not creepy. It’s a hard thing to pin down. I like to flirt and be handled. I need some attention. I aim to please. I want to be teased tortured and tongued. I love having my nipples bitten and pinched, pulled and played with in just about every conceivable way. I am a blank canvas waiting to be explored. Come paint a masterpiece. Color my world vivid and bold. Submission depends on the individual’s ability to align his/her will with that of the dominant and use his/her intelligence to fulfill the dominant's wishes gracefully and efficiently. But, let's make it clear. I'm not a toy my feelings are not your playground and my life is not your game. == Results from bdsmtest.org == 100% Submissive 100% Brat 100% Rope bunny 99% Boy/Girl 92% Ageplayer 80% Primal (Prey) 79% Slave 78% Non-monogamist 76% Masochist 75% Pet 71% Degradee 58% Experimentalist 49% Vanilla 41% Exhibitionist 23% Voyeur 0% Switch SEEKING / LOOKING FOR I'm the kind of girl who is always there for you when you need a friend. I'm also who faces many issues alone, but will still do anything to see you smile. I am peculiar that way. I like to be dominated and an object of pleasure. I am shy a little particular with whom I sleep with and I need to be seduced a little. I also like it when I am handled, when a person acts like it is perfectly normal to touch me in public. Not in a creepy way it is just something that when it is done right really turns me on. I would probably need to get to know some one a little more before I would sleep with them but it is a good start. I want to be lightly dominated by a slightly aggressive person. That's not all I like. I play with men and women. You can tell me I have a pretty cover but I only date a person who reads. I don’t want someone to save me. Not really. I want someone who will plant a kiss on my scars and cover my bruised body with there own. And hold me at 2am when my world has fallen apart and I’ve cried my self into a coma. What I really want is someone to support me while I save my self. If I’m amazing. I won’t be easy. If I’m easy. I won’t be amazing. If I’m worth it you wont give up. If you give up you’re not worthy. If I matter to you. you will find the time to contact me and chat with me. You can judge how much you mean to someone by there actions. You can say your sorry a million times, say I love you as much as you want, say whatever you want whenever you want. But if you're not going to prove that the things you say are true, then don't say anything at all. Because if you can't show it, your words don't mean a thing. Please don't lie in order to satisfy me for a moment because the pain that you cause can last a lifetime. Sex between two people is such a beautiful and magical thing. You give your bodies and your souls. Feeling the passion losing all control. Magic is made when the souls connect. When you feel that undying love within. Then the sexual magic begins. Bodies colliding making you sweat. Feeling euphoric off of each other's breath. Connection of the mind, body, and soul implode. Making your bodies want to explode. This is the magic of sexual connection. Two souls uniting creating perfection. You must also understand that sex isn't everything when it comes to satisfying me. You must comfort me, appreciate me, respect me, protect me, listen to me, understand me, love me, and take care of me emotionally. That is apart of pleasing me. I want to know who you are. I want to know what makes you and I want to be free to share the 'not so pretty' parts of me with you. Not everyone understands me and that is ok. I am looking for that one soul that does and can handle me. I often lie on broken wings. Dreaming of the day someone will care enough to find me and take me home. LIMITS / LIMITATIONS I am open to what ever you would want to do. Not in to anything with Blood or young. Anything else I am game. Light pain is ok spanking and wax play ok anything else don’t know. I don’t like my body scared up if I wanted that I could do that my self. I already don’t like my body the way it is. So I don’t want to like it less with scars all over it. PERSONAL INFO / ABOUT ME I really hate trying to write a summary of who I am. I’m so confusing and complicated. The best part about me is that I don't pretend to be something or someone I am not. What you see is what you get. Like me or not the choice is yours. Who I am? First off I am 5'10, hazel eyes, brown and blond hair. I have curves in all the right places. I breath. I feel. I see. I’m seen, trying to grasp what it may mean, to be, to breathe, to live, to feel. To find myself, becoming real. What is this world I’ve awoken to, Is it just me, or are there others too? I no longer choose to live a lie, for I ask the question who am I? I'm a puzzle with so many shapes and colors. Some with sharp edges and dark, while others are smooth, well rounded, and cheerful. You will most often find me exploring the shades in between. I'm not afraid of the shadows. I love the dark and would love to find my moon that will light up the dark for me. The pieces will come together in time, but until then, I'm perfectly content with the chaos that makes up me. I refuse to limit myself with one label, as I am many things. I am damaged. I have been hurt. I am guarded. I am healing. I am diverse, so I embrace diversity. I have discovered things I am curious about and things I never thought I would like. I suppose curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought it back and I’m always looking for something to get into. Don't bore me with "normal " as that would be against who I am. Intelligence gets me wet, while stupidity is a huge buzz kill. I am forever evolving, so on this journey, I want to learn more about myself and what it is to be me. I spend a lot of time listening to music, reading, and/or watching movies. Music wanders through me. Weaving a mosaic web. Holding my badly broken mind, heart, and soul. Attempting to keep piece of my very being from being forever lost. I am a gamer. Yep, I'm that girl I'm a shy introvert. I love to people watch and observe more then what people think. I like to cook/bake some times and I love to eat (even though my body don’t like food). I really like to sing even though not good at it. I enjoy spending a lot of time with my wife who is also my best friend. I love cuddling. Sometimes I find comfort in just curling up and watching a good movie or reading a book by myself. I pretty much watch all genres of movies and listen to all genres of music. My taste is very eclectic. I love learning new things. I like to play and have fun especially if the end result is (playful) punishment ;). I love all things mystical. I love faeries, vampires, witches, and werewolves. I love the power of the wolf. I love the sound of rain on a tin roof and the smell of rain after a storm. My Favorite color is pink and purple, but don't dislike any color. I love being held and cuddled. I love being spanked and being loved. I am very much a girly girl. I dance to the songs in my head. Speak with the rhythm of my heart and love from the depth of my soul. I'm only me. That is all I can be. No more, no less, don't second guess I love, I live, I laugh, I cry I've wished sometimes that I could die. Some days I'm funny, others I'm not, sometimes I'm in overdrive and I cant stop. You may not like me, but that's okay because this is me and how I'll stay. I am full of sparkle and compassion. I genuinely want to make the world a better place. I love hard. I practice kindness. I’m not afraid of the truth. I am loyal, adventurous, supportive, and surprising. I am a woman. I am enough. I make mistakes, but I own them and learn from them. Sometimes I make a lot of mistakes. I am not a hot girl. I will probably never turn U on or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way I look. I can make you laugh and make you feel wanted. I love to be spoiled not by what you think. I want your time and attention. I really wish that be enough for someone. OTHER INFO You know even sad birds sing. I wear a smile that is not me. Inside I want to scream and not be seen. I message because I care. What I want to say is I am sorry for being such a bother. That is how I feel anymore is a bother to everyone. Everyone wants to talk when it is about them but when I need them they are no longer there. How I act and how I feel are totally different do you see that? I am in an open relationship. We have many of the same friends, but we have separate play partner's because we each have desires and kinks that are unique to us. We both have huge hearts and the ability to love others, but we do not tolerate people who do not respect both of us. In a poly relationship, communication and honesty are a must. We are open with each other about our relationships with others. I’m tired of people saying my standards are to high. I just expect others to do for me what I would be willing to do for them. If you think that’s asking for too much. Then you never deserved me anyway. I fear I have become an addict. To memories, to pain, to the days that never will be, and those that should not have been. Even my dreams have scars. I am so used to chaos that I don't think I could function in peace. In the chaos theory, the butterfly effect is a sensitive dependency on conditions in which even the slightest, seemingly non-related event can have a huge difference on the outcome of another. I am not simple. loving me will never be easy. I bring every that has made me to the table. I won't pretend to be something I am not and I don't expect to be blemish free. That is too boring of a existence. A past means you have lived and how you prevailed. My eyes are open and my heart is accepting. Something you should know if you get this far in my profile. Yes I am submissive and i like to please the person i am with and do what they want. DON'T take my submission as me being week or easy. My submission is a gift that i am willing to give a person if they can prove that they are worthy, willing to make me feel safe, wanted, and loved. If you cant treat me like a person and some one you want to be with. Then you will find that I can’t make you happy. To let you know yes I am a southern bell and I am all demure and all in public but in the house I am fiery and very opinionated. I am a free spirit. A free spirit is someone who believes in who they are and who does not need the approval of anyone. If I am silent, It’s because there is thunder inside me. Or, I’m just chilling. May the odds be ever in your favor. I am looking for friend as long as you want to get to know me and actually be my friend. If you wish to be my friend feel free to contact me. If you just want to play and are not serious please move along not into DRAMA. When I was little, I thought love was about roses and expensive dinners. Truth is, love is giving half your fries when the other person said that they where not hungry. It's waking up at 4am to someone snoring and refraining from shoving them off the bed. It's trying to make each other laugh and trying to embarrass one another in public. It's going on a adventure, and making fun of each other. It's stupid fights, and memorable make ups. love isn't pretty and romantic. love is just stumbling through life with your best friend. love is all the little things and experiences that makes it all up. If all of this did not scare you off please message me.